midlife crisis...





is it possible to have a midlife crisis as you near 35? i think i am perpetually in midlife crisis since birth, so it is hard to tell. i am sitting here looking at the lovely moon, and listening to this...




how much do i love this song? and that beautiful movie! i watched it twice in a row, and i will watch it again. we sat outside tonight to eat dinner, as we have been every night lately. it is so nice... we linger until dark, when the bats come out. my favorite time of day. the air is finally cool, the crickets chirp. we can just be.

tonight the moon was so bright. we have been studying about space, reading this book, and it is so great. what a great thing to stop all the silly things you are doing and suddenly think about the fact that you are spinning through deep, dark space! close your eyes and think about it for a minute. when you are down on yourself for doing nothing very exciting with your life, just remember the sheer exhilaration of that fact! i love learning all the science of space and the universe, it is so technical and romantic at the same time... "we are all children of the stars". i was moved by the moon tonight to listen to neil young's harvest moon. we sat outside, sid in my arms, listening to music.... and i was truly present. the best feeling in the world.

** in case you are wondering, the harvest moon will be on the 23rd!

7 comments:

ImSoVintage said...

Do you remember how much Neil Young I played when you were growing up? Can't wait to see you tomorrow.

GB said...

De-lurking:

I've been tuned into the moon too..only it was "moonshadow" for me! and I brought home away we go from the library this week as well! :)

barbara said...

This is a beautiful post which I so agree with ...

ps would never have got through Uni with out Neil Young!

Cary Walker said...

thank you! i am always so happy when i have some new posters! thanks for taking the time to comment:)

Mare said...

Don't think of it as a mid life crisis. I try to think of it as reviewing where I am at. Sometimes it feels as though we have lost site of our trail. Maybe we have just side-stepped to a new one and it seems unfamiliar. If you are completely at rest with where you are then you are no longer reaching...dreaming...learning. I say, the fact that you were able to engage in that moment of the moon, music and family was proof enough that you are not lost. Peace and believe.....

Cary Walker said...

mare, thank you for your very kind words... they are much appreciated.

Mare said...

And I truly meant them...I'm happy you had a great week end. :)