i was thinking today about last year at this time. last year i posted the picture above announcing i was pregnant. i was full of hope and a bit of fear about the future. my life had started down such a different path... one of older children in school everyday, of quiet hours to do as i liked and to do what needed to be done. i was figuring out what all that meant when suddenly it all went down another road. now here i am a year later. excuse the blurry camera picture of me and tess but that is where my life is at. that was me, today, making dinner with a baby on my back. one who curiously tries to peek around to see what i am doing and pulls my hair and giggles when i cry "ouch"! it is a familiar life, one i remember and one that is new. i don't have a toddler to chase around this time too. this morning i took a shower and dressed while my oldest gave the baby breakfast! it is a good life, one with kids home all day and no more quiet hours alone. it is a cranky baby and a cranky mama and sometimes cranky kids all at once, but also of many moments of giggling and just time spent... together. reading books, making art, doing experiments, playing together. i am no where near perfect and fret daily that i am even "good enough" but i get up and keep trying. hopefully that is what we will all remember.